Christmas

At 1 am, I just have the urge to blog about Christmas... Yes, I know it's in a month's time.. but I really can't wait for it...

I have always loved Christmas.. it is really a season of love, joy and hope. Listening to Christmas' songs never fails to put a smile on my face. I could go all day listening to them.. this joy is just unexplainable. a joy that casts every problems away... a joy that comes from Above... a gift i would say..

it is even more powerful when you know the true meaning of Christmas... it's like this amazing, wonderful present that you could ever imagined which it's given without any condition... you just need to believe... having that faith that Christ was born and He was here on earth.. like one of us... but He was pure and holy, gentle and loving.. you can find no one like Him...

How great is that?

Holiness

I have been struck with this word recently. As I was preparing for bible study, God says, "Be holy for I am Holy."

Be Holy! God is telling my to be holy. What does He mean? What is holiness? I wonder.

Does it mean sinless? I doubt so. How can i be sinless? God can't be asking me to be sinless, can He? so, what is sin? I found out that sin in Greek means 'miss the mark'. We are sinners because we can never meet God's mark, God's standard. we sin. it is not just wrongdoing, but missing the mark. So, how can we be holy?

when God says be holy, he means setting apart for Him. That's a revelation to me in a way. i am called to be set apart for Him because He is holy. In this context, because of His character, He is sinless, thus Holy.

next question, am i setting apart for Him in my life right now? it is a struggle.

Just a thought..

What is patience? What is the antonym of patience?

Many would say is impatience.. i mean how difficult could it be? I was asked by someone about this.. and i knew it wasn't that simple.. but i just couldn't figure out what the answer is and blurted out, "Impatience la!"

However... the answer that I was told is PRIDE. Why would a person lose his patience? because of his pride.. he wants his ways of doing things, hence he doesn't want to wait, doesn't want to hear from others... only his ways because he thinks he is good...

why pride? because many times, we think that we are right... we think that we are wise... so, we lack of patience.. we can't wait, we can't endure, we can't tolerate...

I really like what my friend said.. the opposite of patience is PRIDE.

The one UP there...

I like the email teck keong sent to me when I was feeling emo about going back...

"Jesus is enough... Jesus is enough..."

Indeed,

That statement really comforted me a lot... or rather reminded me that Jesus alone is whom I should rely upon and He alone provides my needs...

The one UP there... who is always faithful, always loving, always caring... He is what I need, whom I need... Thank you...

Thank you Jesus.

It's time

After a few months, I guess it's time to write again... Looking at the screen, my mind just went blank... but it's the urge that makes me write...

In a few days more, i'm going back to UK again... excited? nervous? sad? I guess it's everything... But one thing that I'm sure is I want to grow more... It will be challenging, seeing it's my final year and being in student's ministry... but God's promise is always there.. that He will deliver me...

God,

Prepare me...

I Need You..

It's 3 a.m.

Couldn't sleep yet couldn't study...

My heart cries out to You O God... Help me during this time of distress... Grant me strength as I'm weak now...

I want to shout for joy but I feel like there's a stone suppressing my heart... I lift it all up to You... I want to lay down the stone unto You... "Cast all your anxieties." You said. for You care for me.

You are my refuge and my fortress. The only place where I can find peace... The only place where I can find comfort...

Do not turn Your back on me God... I want to feel your presence... Empower me once again!

I surrender all... absolutely everything... I'm not holding back... no strength to carry on... just relying on You because I know You will carry me through... Indeed, You are carrying me already as I only see one set of footprints... Thank You o God.

Above all else, I just want to say, "I Need You..."

I need You.

The Most Important essence in life

Indeed, Love is the most important essence in life. It seems that God has been speaking to me about Love these few days.. 

We must love or Die!

Love always wins! 

I just watched fireproof... the movie was talking about marriage and the love of God. God's love for us is unconditional. His love for us was never affected even though we rejected him, spat at him and trampled him. I was reminded by His love again and how He wants us to love others as His command said so. 

Lord, teach me to love.