Assumption

Many times in life we make lots of assumptions.. However, assumptions can cause misunderstandings between 2 parties if both parties make the wrong assumptions about each other.. sometimes, we can't help it but to make assumptions... i'm just wondering, if you make assumptions about something or someone, does that mean that you're judging? 

hmm, make an example could make things clearer... for example, you met this person for the very first time and you went out dinner with this person.. as a courtesy, you ask whether he/she wants a drink... in your mind, you really didn't expect he/she would order an alcoholic drink because you know that he/she is from a very strict family, hence you assume that alcoholic drink is forbidden in his/her life! from that moment when he/she ordered the drink, your impression of this person went from good to average. Does that mean that you have judged this person? I don't know if this example make any sense.. but that is how i feel...

People always assume.. we assume that if we do certain kind of acts, we will upset that person... we assume that people will get offended, we assume that people might judge us etc etc.. yes, we use our past experience to deduce something, we use our rationality to come to an assumptions.. but in the end, are we judging that person?

it's just a random thought anyway.. 

Roller Coaster

I know that I have not been updating... I guess I am really lazy or rather can't be bothered to write about anything in this blog... Somehow, at this very moment, I need to write... Probably writing will help to reflect on things that had happened in this few months or weeks... 

Exam has ended...

Results? 

I will only know this Friday...

How's life?

I would say it is like a roller coaster...

Ups and Downs...

We all know it is inevitable...

Last week was a week where my emotions somehow went to this amusement park and took a roller coaster ride... The ride was indeed thrilling in a way where you feel sick after riding it... it takes away your breath, you almost can't breathe... you can't even scream... all you can do is just suck it all in... your face is pale as if there wasn't any blood anymore... after that ride, you just feel like vomiting everything that you ate... you just can't contain it anymore... spilling it out is really messy... in the end, you have to clean your own mess... your own sick... 

During that time, you feel so alone... like no one is there to help you... however, i thank God for friends... friends that stood by me when i was throwing up my "mess", friends that help me out when i don't know how how to clean the "mess"... that's when i feel loved... that's when i know that God has not abandoned me... He is actually with me... He sends friends to comfort me... 

I don't like it when friendship starts to turn sour... I don't know how to handle it... I don't know how to face them... I can't find the grey area... I don't know how to balance... Hence, i was tempted to take the easy way out which is sweeping it under the carpet... well, I guess sweeping it under the carpet isn't the way i resolve things... i prefer confrontation... thank God, my way works! I'm glad that this roller coaster ride has come to an end... at least after throwing up, i felt so much better... obviously, it was messy because of the sick but after cleaning up, it is fine... maybe it is true that every friendship needs to go through some kind of "trials".. if you have overcome those "trials", clearly your friendship is real! 

oh well, thank God the ride is over...

Start of something new!

Hello 2009!

Goodbye 2008...

So many things had happened in that year...

Ups and downs...

Good and Bad...

but then again,

Thank God for His faithfulness!

He still kept me safe throughout the year...

He gave me my family and my friends to support me...

without their love, i think i wouldn't be able to stand on my feet...

Looking back, i think i have not fully obeyed God...

I think i have not done my part...

I think i didn't try my best...

So many opportunities that i've missed...

So many times I've failed God...

However,

this God that i believe in did not abandon me...

He did not give up on me...

He continues to love me, give me hope and fill me with joy...

Because of his love, I'm able to give love...

By giving love, i feel loved as well...

God is right!

If you give, you receive more...

That's what i really learned in year 2008...

New Year's resolution??

simple...

DEVOTION

WORK HARD

LOSE WEIGHT

Lord, I commit this into your hands...

I pray that in the year of 2009, I will be able to stay close to you, work hard for my uni and definitely lose weight! I pray for you strength and favor to be upon me... thank you so much for your provision...In Your name I pray, AMEN!

Christmas!

Christmas . . .

I always love this season of the year...

It is the time where family and friends spend time together...

yes, i may be in a foreign land...

but...

what exactly is a foreign land?

is it really foreign?

not exactly...

i don't think is a foreign when you find your spiritual family here...

I'm really thankful that God has given me spiritual family here...

Friends whom i can call my family...

friends who cares for me...

friends who accept me for who i am...

Thank you Lord!

I know Christmas would be different this year...

Being different may not be bad...

It is just another experience...

God,

I want to thank you for the work you done in my life!

For your unfailing love

For your grace

For the cross!

Christmas is my favourite season...

because it is a season of love...

is a season of giving...

i learn to give...

give whatever i have...

give the most precious thing on earth...

which is LOVE!

Home...

Home...

Is where i was born...

Is where i was brought up...

Is where my closest people are...

Is a place where I can never find a place to replace...

Is where I can be myself...

Is where I know I'm loved...

Is where I know I'm protected...

Is where I can be vulnerable...

I want to go home...

I want to see home...

I want to feel home...

Yes, I am homesick...

especially Christmas season is here.. where everyone is going home to be with their family and friends... and yet, i am still here... i wouldn't say is a lonely christmas but is definitely different without my closest friends and family...

What can I do?

I just have to bear it, persevere it and hang on...

What can I complain?

I just have to count my blessings that God has given me here...

Do I feel sad?

Yes, Of course! but God knows what best for me... probably He has prepared a whole new experience of Christmas here!

So,

I just have to pray...

God,

Embrace me with your love

That's all i ask...

How i wish...

How I wish Christmas is here now at this very moment!!

I'm playing Christmas Carols and songs in my itunes already! Just love the atmosphere of Christmas! Thinking of buying christmas deco for my room too! hmm.. probably a small christmas tree is good!! will go hunt in town...

then again... looking at those law books on my desk isn't the pleasing to my eyes!! sigh..
there's no perfection in everything...
just have to bear with the bad things...
hmm..
probably the word "bear" isn't a good word... it is a negative word indeed...
probably i should look at the good side of things even though it may appears to be bad...
sometimes, trying to be idealistic is good..
at least it takes away all the negative thoughts...
at least you will be comforted and encouraged...
some argued that being realistic is the most practical but it will somehow brings someone down.. esp a dreamer like me..
i like dreaming big things! that's why one of my favourite character in the Bible is Joseph...
He is a dreamer...
God gave him dreams...
Dreams that is real!
Lord, help me to dream big things that you have for me!!

Packed weekend...

Phew! I'm really knackered right now after a long weekend...

First, I did not sleep at all on fri night cuz I have to wake up at 3am in the morning to catch the coach for Nottingham games! so, forced myself to sleep but i failed... decided to just stay awake at wait till 3..

Oh, btw, Nottingham Games is like a sports games for all Malaysia societies all over UK..
I went there to play netball...
Unfortunately, out team lost... but one thing, i felt we really played well! just the other teams were really strong...

then it was Sunday again!
i just love sunday!
I can meet my family and friends!!
hehe... seriously, i think i'm really attached to my church friends here..
I can't believe i actually missed them when i was in Nottingham!! it just felt so weird without seeing them on a sat or fri!!
Gosh!! we are too attached i guess.. hehe

we had sunday school training about ethics with children after service..
i thought it was good cuz sunday school here is quite different from home..
Most of the children here are from non-christian background.. and we need to watch our teaching style and stuff like that..

guess.. i really need to go to bed now before i crash in front of the laptop!