Christmas!

Christmas . . .

I always love this season of the year...

It is the time where family and friends spend time together...

yes, i may be in a foreign land...

but...

what exactly is a foreign land?

is it really foreign?

not exactly...

i don't think is a foreign when you find your spiritual family here...

I'm really thankful that God has given me spiritual family here...

Friends whom i can call my family...

friends who cares for me...

friends who accept me for who i am...

Thank you Lord!

I know Christmas would be different this year...

Being different may not be bad...

It is just another experience...

God,

I want to thank you for the work you done in my life!

For your unfailing love

For your grace

For the cross!

Christmas is my favourite season...

because it is a season of love...

is a season of giving...

i learn to give...

give whatever i have...

give the most precious thing on earth...

which is LOVE!

Home...

Home...

Is where i was born...

Is where i was brought up...

Is where my closest people are...

Is a place where I can never find a place to replace...

Is where I can be myself...

Is where I know I'm loved...

Is where I know I'm protected...

Is where I can be vulnerable...

I want to go home...

I want to see home...

I want to feel home...

Yes, I am homesick...

especially Christmas season is here.. where everyone is going home to be with their family and friends... and yet, i am still here... i wouldn't say is a lonely christmas but is definitely different without my closest friends and family...

What can I do?

I just have to bear it, persevere it and hang on...

What can I complain?

I just have to count my blessings that God has given me here...

Do I feel sad?

Yes, Of course! but God knows what best for me... probably He has prepared a whole new experience of Christmas here!

So,

I just have to pray...

God,

Embrace me with your love

That's all i ask...

How i wish...

How I wish Christmas is here now at this very moment!!

I'm playing Christmas Carols and songs in my itunes already! Just love the atmosphere of Christmas! Thinking of buying christmas deco for my room too! hmm.. probably a small christmas tree is good!! will go hunt in town...

then again... looking at those law books on my desk isn't the pleasing to my eyes!! sigh..
there's no perfection in everything...
just have to bear with the bad things...
hmm..
probably the word "bear" isn't a good word... it is a negative word indeed...
probably i should look at the good side of things even though it may appears to be bad...
sometimes, trying to be idealistic is good..
at least it takes away all the negative thoughts...
at least you will be comforted and encouraged...
some argued that being realistic is the most practical but it will somehow brings someone down.. esp a dreamer like me..
i like dreaming big things! that's why one of my favourite character in the Bible is Joseph...
He is a dreamer...
God gave him dreams...
Dreams that is real!
Lord, help me to dream big things that you have for me!!

Packed weekend...

Phew! I'm really knackered right now after a long weekend...

First, I did not sleep at all on fri night cuz I have to wake up at 3am in the morning to catch the coach for Nottingham games! so, forced myself to sleep but i failed... decided to just stay awake at wait till 3..

Oh, btw, Nottingham Games is like a sports games for all Malaysia societies all over UK..
I went there to play netball...
Unfortunately, out team lost... but one thing, i felt we really played well! just the other teams were really strong...

then it was Sunday again!
i just love sunday!
I can meet my family and friends!!
hehe... seriously, i think i'm really attached to my church friends here..
I can't believe i actually missed them when i was in Nottingham!! it just felt so weird without seeing them on a sat or fri!!
Gosh!! we are too attached i guess.. hehe

we had sunday school training about ethics with children after service..
i thought it was good cuz sunday school here is quite different from home..
Most of the children here are from non-christian background.. and we need to watch our teaching style and stuff like that..

guess.. i really need to go to bed now before i crash in front of the laptop!

Finally..

Finally is Reading week already!

I really need this one week break to catch up with my studies!! So much to read, so much to study.. Besides that, I need this time to spend more time with God and to seek Him..

So much things happened the past few weeks! Ups and Downs.. seems to be like a roller coaster.. but it all turned out to be good...

I'm glad that student fellowship is doing the series on Friendship!
I thought it was really appropriate for everyone to think through about the friendship that we have..

Have you invested enough time in your friendship?

Have you given in efforts to sustain the friendship?

Are you going through the thicks and thins with your friend?

Is your friendship Christ-centered?

Sometimes we may think that is really tiring to make the effort, is tiring to make the initiative..

But just hang on! persevere on!

You will see the fruit really soon... those efforts, time and even tears will not go into vain.. Your friendship will grow even stronger!

I thank God for the people He put in my life. Everyone has a special place.. they all play different role in different seasons of my life!

Friendship..
sounds really familiar..
But
it is POWERFUL
it is a GIFT

I woke up this morning feeling depressed and lonely...

I wonder why...

Perhaps I miss them...

Perhaps is her...

Perhaps is just mood swing...

However, God is good!

He just send people around to comfort me and cheer me up!

I am really blessed here...

He gave me a family here that cares for me and loves me...

What can I ask for more?

I just need to keep thanking Him...

Looking forward to worship practice on Wednesday!!!

Can't wait to see all of them!

God is GOOD!

. . . Tired . . .

I'm just tired...

Really tired...

I just want to sleep...