Exam has ended...
Results?
I will only know this Friday...
How's life?
I would say it is like a roller coaster...
Ups and Downs...
We all know it is inevitable...
Last week was a week where my emotions somehow went to this amusement park and took a roller coaster ride... The ride was indeed thrilling in a way where you feel sick after riding it... it takes away your breath, you almost can't breathe... you can't even scream... all you can do is just suck it all in... your face is pale as if there wasn't any blood anymore... after that ride, you just feel like vomiting everything that you ate... you just can't contain it anymore... spilling it out is really messy... in the end, you have to clean your own mess... your own sick...
During that time, you feel so alone... like no one is there to help you... however, i thank God for friends... friends that stood by me when i was throwing up my "mess", friends that help me out when i don't know how how to clean the "mess"... that's when i feel loved... that's when i know that God has not abandoned me... He is actually with me... He sends friends to comfort me...
I don't like it when friendship starts to turn sour... I don't know how to handle it... I don't know how to face them... I can't find the grey area... I don't know how to balance... Hence, i was tempted to take the easy way out which is sweeping it under the carpet... well, I guess sweeping it under the carpet isn't the way i resolve things... i prefer confrontation... thank God, my way works! I'm glad that this roller coaster ride has come to an end... at least after throwing up, i felt so much better... obviously, it was messy because of the sick but after cleaning up, it is fine... maybe it is true that every friendship needs to go through some kind of "trials".. if you have overcome those "trials", clearly your friendship is real!
oh well, thank God the ride is over...
