Home...

Home...

Is where i was born...

Is where i was brought up...

Is where my closest people are...

Is a place where I can never find a place to replace...

Is where I can be myself...

Is where I know I'm loved...

Is where I know I'm protected...

Is where I can be vulnerable...

I want to go home...

I want to see home...

I want to feel home...

Yes, I am homesick...

especially Christmas season is here.. where everyone is going home to be with their family and friends... and yet, i am still here... i wouldn't say is a lonely christmas but is definitely different without my closest friends and family...

What can I do?

I just have to bear it, persevere it and hang on...

What can I complain?

I just have to count my blessings that God has given me here...

Do I feel sad?

Yes, Of course! but God knows what best for me... probably He has prepared a whole new experience of Christmas here!

So,

I just have to pray...

God,

Embrace me with your love

That's all i ask...

How i wish...

How I wish Christmas is here now at this very moment!!

I'm playing Christmas Carols and songs in my itunes already! Just love the atmosphere of Christmas! Thinking of buying christmas deco for my room too! hmm.. probably a small christmas tree is good!! will go hunt in town...

then again... looking at those law books on my desk isn't the pleasing to my eyes!! sigh..
there's no perfection in everything...
just have to bear with the bad things...
hmm..
probably the word "bear" isn't a good word... it is a negative word indeed...
probably i should look at the good side of things even though it may appears to be bad...
sometimes, trying to be idealistic is good..
at least it takes away all the negative thoughts...
at least you will be comforted and encouraged...
some argued that being realistic is the most practical but it will somehow brings someone down.. esp a dreamer like me..
i like dreaming big things! that's why one of my favourite character in the Bible is Joseph...
He is a dreamer...
God gave him dreams...
Dreams that is real!
Lord, help me to dream big things that you have for me!!

Packed weekend...

Phew! I'm really knackered right now after a long weekend...

First, I did not sleep at all on fri night cuz I have to wake up at 3am in the morning to catch the coach for Nottingham games! so, forced myself to sleep but i failed... decided to just stay awake at wait till 3..

Oh, btw, Nottingham Games is like a sports games for all Malaysia societies all over UK..
I went there to play netball...
Unfortunately, out team lost... but one thing, i felt we really played well! just the other teams were really strong...

then it was Sunday again!
i just love sunday!
I can meet my family and friends!!
hehe... seriously, i think i'm really attached to my church friends here..
I can't believe i actually missed them when i was in Nottingham!! it just felt so weird without seeing them on a sat or fri!!
Gosh!! we are too attached i guess.. hehe

we had sunday school training about ethics with children after service..
i thought it was good cuz sunday school here is quite different from home..
Most of the children here are from non-christian background.. and we need to watch our teaching style and stuff like that..

guess.. i really need to go to bed now before i crash in front of the laptop!